I HAVE A JOURNAL.

Ahh. Feel much better. It’s okay to have a journal to write in . . . right?

Hello. . .? :)

c. s.

Jesus was born to seek and save the lost.

I have said this on a different post on this site:

I AM A PAST PROCRASTINATOR.

When I was nineteen, I wrote here and there. No job and nothing else to do. I didn’t even read. I had all the time in the world and I didn’t read the ten to twenty books that I had.

All writers, try to write every day. Jesus said found in John 10:30, “The Father and I are one.”

Oh yeah, and I STRUGGLED WITH OCD.

I just recently found this blog and what I have to say so far, the entire place is a pleasure to deal with. Bad boy I am, just lurking, but I have to admit that this “I am a whatever” exercise is pretty compelling, and almost always a wise advise for *any* screenwriter, smart or not, paid or not. It’s a powerfull method. Absolutely.

Not long ago I just created bland characters based on some plot driven common sense ideas. Extremely boring and it just didn’t work out well and sell.

But than I found out the “I am a whatever” thing by my own. Few years ago.

The initial spark was a situation where I had to pitch a story to some exec., who invited me based on an exposé I send in. On the phone he appreciated the idea I came up with (and my overall writing skills. I love to hear things like that) but as soon as I entered his office he unexpectedly AND immediately confronted me brutally with some major flaws within the main character (too bland and too one-dimensional, a mere run of the mill character). I was speechless with shame and terror in the same time. WTF is going on? I was under the impression that I’m gonna leave the office with a signature, instead this particular guy was deconstructing my writing carrier and hopes in the twinkling of an eye.
(I’m the self-deceptive type, sort of)
For a split second I thought that this guy were to kill me. He were going to reveal once and forever that I am a pretender and a notorious liar (my personal flaws). And I faced it, IF I wouldn’t come up eventually with *something* new to my main character, I would lose everything. Something new, anything, that could save me by the bell. In that very moment of total stress I choosed to be honest, to cease lying, whatever.

I quickly created a whole new character based on my own dark corners.
(Fancy idea, I thought, while it was happening)
I told him that the main character is actually a notorious liar (I am), who constantly abuses any kind of contact for his very own interests (I do). That the main character wants quick success with little to no effort (Me again). That he grew up without a father (me again).
(The whole story was about a father-son-conflict.)
And that the main character desperately tries to find his father (hello me), in order to settle up with him (who? me.). And this is crux, the main characters need is *reconciliation*.

Guess who needed *reconciliation*, in order to complete?

Bottom line: I was actually able to create a full-fledged and round character based on my deepest fears and most obnoxious traits. All that within a four eye pitch situation, unbelievable, but true.

The method is fun (well to some extent), but it works.

I am no-one’s submissive here either of course. :)

Conversely, I could be hard when it came to something like mercenaries; when I perceive the stakes as being pretty equal on both sides.

*dancing*

I AM CHANDLER BING?